Apology

I did a very stupid thing last night. I hurt a very, very good friend.  I know she's reading, and I know she'll say it's OK, and she did when I apologized in person this morning. But, really it wasn't OK, and I still feel awful about it. I don't know if my apologizing on here is selfish, since it's a way to make me feel better, but I just feel it needs to be said again, and to be honest, it really isn't making me feel much better. 
So, to M, I am very sorry for what I did, or more importantly what I didn't do.  I have no excuses, and again I'm not going to try and make any up.  I love you, and I am sorry. I wish I could do last night all over again. I can't, so I can just do  better, or try harder next time.  I am sorry. 

And for what we talked about..  I know.. I know... I owe you big time!!!  :)